Happiness??

Do they not want me happy? They act as if they don't care, I don't even know if they do. They are strict to me yet my brothers can do as they feel. I am happy with him yet you won't even try to get to know him. You say you know enough and that's all you need. Really you don't want me to be happy. I am happy with him and I love him. I am myself when I'm with him and don't have to feel like a nobody when I'm with him. He makes me feel special and he is special to me. I truly never thought we would be like this but we are and I am happy that we are. I wouldn't give this up for anything. I truly am happy and truly love him. He makes me smile and feel better when down. He brings my smile out on a bad day. He can turn my day around easily without knowing it. I love him. :)

Humm thinking

Well I really do love him and I can't stand bein away from him even if its little time. I have never felt this way before and sometimes concurs me why am I even hidin this from my parents, o ya right cuz they believe he will go back to his old self and be like my sisters boyfriend. I just figured that out today well technically yesterday when Jake messages me a question asking what I think If u told my mom about us how she would react and that got me thinking and I all of a sudden thought about my sister and then her boyfriend and my parents. I believe they should still get to know gin before just judging him because everyone is different and u can't just assume things without knowing everything from the person. I believe my parents should be happy for me to have someone that cares for me and I am happy with and can be myself with but most of all that me n him love each other. I just don't want to hide Jake and me being together anymore and just want my parents to understand. I get sad when he leaves me n when I have to leave him even if we will see each other the next mornin, some will think I'm crazy but I'm in love. I would have never thought I would have feel for him but I did and he makes me happy. I love Jake

Times

Well I had a good Christmas break but wish I could of spent more time with him but at least I got to be with him Wednesday and Friday. I had fun with him he is awesome and I love him. I'm glad I got to spend time with him yesterday before the weekend n it was a good time :) and then seen him a little wile today but he left when the other two color guard people went home he did n ya I was kinda sad but it's ok at least we text all the time. I love seein him he makes me very happy just being with him. I do love him.