Wow

I hate bein sick my eyes r so dual, I feel like crap, I just can't wait till it's gone. I want my sleep n my headaches to not be so bad everyday, I should be used to them but no. I always get scared thinking bout what it could be. Well the colds been bringing me down but Jake just knows how to make me feel better over a any text that he sends me. He is great.

Today

I got to seem him today but it wasn't long enough, just going to the library n hangin out isn't good enough. I won't
More time with him. When it's summer I can use I'm going for a walk but in the winter I don't go for walks. I wish I had more time with him. I truly love bein with him, in his safe arms. He just makes me so very happy. :)

What I was waiting for

Well I woke up yesterday and didn't feel like getting out of bed because I was getting sick, the next thing I new my phone vibrated for a text I was like who's textin me cuz not a lot of people text me then I turned around and he's name was lit up on my phone I grabbed my phone n smiled and got up out of bed and text him right back. That was a great way to wake up in the mornin to his text n tellin me he missed me so I wasn't the only one. He missed me n I missed him. I was so happy n don't get how he makes me feel the way I do. I felt like crap but textin him I forgot about in n couldn't tell I was feelin crappy except the scratchy throught and coughing. Well I just couldn't believe that he finally texted me it's what I really needed n he made my day go smother or it would of been crappy cuz I felt crappy. I just can't believe how he manages to flip my day around without being by my said tryin to get me to laugh n smile witch always works. He just does it in textin n doesn't even have to be by me. I just was waitin for that text to get me going yesterday. Even though I fell asleep on hi last night because the sick sleepiness took me away. LOLz

This is going to be a long break :(

Ugh well I might not see him for a wile n it sucks cuz he can't even text. :( this is going to be a long Christmas break. I probably should shut up but I already miss him just knowing I'm not going to see him tomorrow like school days, I wish I could but I won't see him till the next year as in January 6th when school starts most likely. I just can't wait to see him with his safe arms around me. I got a little bear from him n I started caring it around with me yesterday n then today. I just can't wait to see him to be held and to hold him n feel his lips against mine. So said bear don't have a name yet, got to wait till he gets textin then. I just wish I didn't feel so bad about him having to feel the way he does when around my parents. :(

Keep thinking about

I can't stop thinkin about everything that happened yesterday 1st I thought Veronica was mad at me for some reason but she ended up not n she was waiting for me to stop bein mad but I wasn't mad but it got settled. Well another was what Jake did but I pulled away but shouldn't of but sence I'm scared I did n it's nothing bad though. I loved havin time after school with him he made me much happier, till the robotics stuff started for the ro-pasta. Well then my mom and Veronica came n Jake n me had to act as if were not dating cuz my mom. He got mad n I actully feel as if it my falt but it's not but it don't take it away cuz I feel so bad my parents think the way they do about him but won't even meet him is so irritating that they think the way they do. Ugh it just gets me so mad I wish I could go up to them tell them him n me r going out n they meet him n get to know him even if they do 100 questions, then we wouldn't have to hide it from them. Well I cant n it hurts me to see Jake down N hurting I just want to go to him n give him a hug n kiss. I got him happy cuz my mom was away from us n we were sellin tickets n everyone out there new r situation even his mom n she gets why I do/did what I did/do. I'm just really happy that I got to make him happy n distracted cuz I couldn't stand seein him the way he was. This Christmas break is going to be long, I cant wait till he can text me I will not be able to be calm n talk if he doesn't text me.